From: "Erwin Hessle" <equinox418@btinternet.com>
Newsgroups: alt.magick.tyagi,alt.pagan.magick,alt.magick
Subject: Re: Nature of the HGA,
Date: Tue, 21 Aug 2001 21:38:39 +0100

> given that each person has their own experience, which cannot truly be
> described in words...  according to the qabalistic system in general, once
> there is knowledge and conversation with one's holy guardian angel, the
> person will return to being an individual with an ego and personal
> interests, but those attachments will be a reflection of the person's true
> will rather than being a reflection of one's
> family/social/religious/whatever previous programming.

A more accurate description is that the "attachments" still remain, you just
aren't attached to them anymore. Their nature doesn't really change, they
just cease to control you, or to worry you.

KCHGA relies on *familiarity* with the "conscious will devoid of personal
interests" to use BR's phrase again. After experiencing such a state enough
times, the memories and bedrock of experience allow you to keep these
"attachments" in their proper perspective when they threaten to gain control
again. They don't go away, but you've seen them for the phantasms they are
with sufficient frequency that you simply don't get fooled by them any more.
Hence, "invoke often". Familiarity with that state (or "conversation with
your HGA") allows you to benefit without constantly being in that state
(which would be "becoming your HGA" I suppose).

That's about all there is to it. No amount of intellectualising can replace
this experience. Indeed, it is more likely to give fuel to such phantasms.
Talking about "personalised experience and idealized visions" is one thing,
but the moment you begin to mistake them for reality you're paddling through
your own shit. Reality comes from the outside in, not the other way round.

Erwin Hessle, 8=3